fledgling dreams

well. its been a while since you’ve been gone. what ive been feeling since you left isn’t exactly loneliness, but its not relief either. at first i rejected what i thought was inevitable and when i accepted it i realized that there was something i could have done. whatever happened, the life ive lead since is a tribute to numbness. i live someone elses life that i dont even recognize. your thoughts were coinciding with mine, whenever, whatever i felt, you felt. when i drew up the sheets, you slipped into a world of dreams miles away. i conjure images of us in somnolence still.